Feel so lonely and know I’m not the only one

Massively affected me. I’ve had anxiety and depression for many years and have struggled at times but the last year with lockdowns has increased these symptoms so much it’s devastating. My fiancé died from Cancer early March 2020 2 wks before our wedding. Then we went into lockdown I could only have 13 people at his funeral and no wake afterwards. No chance to grieve been living in almost permanent lockdown since. I’ve been wfh which I am lucky to be able to do but now am anxious to go out and not seen anyone except my son for almost a year. My mental health currently is in a bad way I have to wait another 5 months for counselling and have physical symptoms too. Have a face full of acne and I’m in my 40’s!! Feel so lonely and know I’m not the only one there are so many of us. It worries me how long this will go on for. I cry a lot and the sadness has taken over.